Thoughts Running in My Mind at the moment.

I'm angry. I'm frustrated. I'm disappointed.

I give you a chance, to show me you are worth my time, and you let me down.
You weren't there when I needed you and I don't feel like I can trust you.

You are a complete stranger to me and I think you always will be.

I'm not really in one of those laughing or smiling moods. I don't feel like there's anything to smile about.

I feel like you lie to me every time we talk and I think that's the reason I don't allow myself to feel anything for you.


You know when you meet someone and realize after you have invested time into them, that they weren't worth the time you spent?
Yeah well that's pretty much how I feel at the present moment.

My life has completely changed since I met you,and I can't say for the better unfortunately.

To be in a relationship or even a friendship for that matter, there has to be open and honest communication. They moment you start lying, is the moment there is a breach in our friendship/relationship.

You can't lie to me and just expect for when I expose your lie and you say I'm sorry that the effects of you lying goes away. Trust has been broken and it will be a challenge for you to earn it back.

My suggestion is to tell the truth at all costs, even if you think it will hurt the person's feelings, because if they find out that you have been lying to them the whole time, that will hurt them even more.

There's a problem when you're in a relationship with someone and they're not the person you initially go to when you have an issue.

-I feel someone else is better at being sensitive to my wants/needs
-You have a lack of sincere concern
-You have selective hearing
-You only care about something if it will directly affect your status.

It Wasn' t My Time

At the moment things have been a challenge for me.
I’m not eating, not sleeping well, and all I want to do is just lay in my bed under the covers and cry.
I never knew what really loving someone was like, but I’m quickly learning.
The butterflies I get in my stomach are so intense and I sometimes just can’t take it.
It’s like as if everything around me is falling apart.
My life as I once knew it is no longer there and I have now taken on someone else’s identity.
The identity of a girl I once used to make fun of because I didn’t understand her and her issues.
I thought I was too good to experience what she was experiencing; it just wasn’t my time yet. It wasn’t my time to experience all the joys and pains that come with love and being in love.
It wasn’t my time to feel vulnerable and to put my heart in someone’s hand.
It wasn’t my time for me to sacrifice everything about myself for someone else.
It wasn’t my time.