ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

Ok I'm angry....
I don't know exactly what I'm angry about, but I'm angry.
I try not to take it out on anyone specifically, but it happens.

I'm so angry and more so disappointed in the men I meet and come in contact with. They let me down and then expect for me to just get over when they apologize and own up to the fact that they made a mistake.

Well unfortunately, it doesn't happen that way.

Now that I'm gone and no longer dealing with you, you decide you want me back and come back talking all that good game that is full of hot breath, trying to persuade me to forgive your sorry excuse for a man.

NO!!
I won't go through that mess anymore.
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

These Are a Few of My Favorite Things

BIG EARRINGS!!!





IT'S JUST BEAUTIFUL....



EYESHADOW


THE MOVIE BROWN SUGAR


THE COLOR BURNT ORANGE



TAZ



NAIL POLISH



CHICKEN STRIPS AND HONEY MUSTARD!!! YUMMY!!



LIPGLOSS!!


CANDY!!!!

Total Confusion

So for last few weeks, there has been someone on my mind that I've been having very mixed emotions about. One moment I want to spend the rest of my life with him, and then in the next I want to just remove all communication between the two of us. I'm used to a certain level of pursuit from the guy I'm talking to, and his level is incredibly lower than I'm used to. He keeps me intrigued about him and I just can't loose him.
This is the big kicker, but not a surprise if you know anything about me

........ we haven't seen each other in person.......

Big surprise I know. You're probably thinking, well how can she like this guy so much when she hasn't even met him. Well I get to know the person and just hope and pray they're not full of lies. It's not like I don't have any clue of what he looks like. Trust me, the brother is FINE.

But we have been arguing for like 2 weeks now, so at this point, I'm tired of it, and ready to call it quits, but then right when I make up my mind to walk completely away, he says something that just captures me all over again.

I really want to be with him, but there is just that something that's keeping me at bay. He has no idea of who I am and what I want, because I feel as though I'm still changing and morphing into the woman God is creating me to be.

He has expressed what he wants and in the beginning when he made those things known, I was fine with them, but I was also thinking, those things would be accomplished in the future, not necessarily something I needed to take in at that very moment.

I don't know what to do and I wish I could just see him and know exactly what choice I should make, but until then, I guess I'll be going in circles.

Just Life I Guess.....

I'm not interested in being a Plan B for anyone. I want to be the one and only.
I want the fairy tale, although I know it probably won't happen, I at least want someone to try to make my dreams come true.

I'm a good woman and I deserve a good man. Someone who only has eyes for me. Someone who will take it slow and wait until I'm ready.

OMG....
As I have been sitting here thinking and watching Lifetime movies, I think I've had an epiphany. I can't stop thinking about him when we're not talking.....
But then I sometimes have to question myself and ask who is HIM? Which brings me right back to where I started.... in a total state of confusion.

Right when I think I have everything figured out, another issue comes up.

Are things supposed to be this challenging?
Am I supposed to question myself?

I thought when this time came around I would just know.... but I don't.

Maybe I'm not ready......

Happiness

We all want happiness. We want someone who will understand us and be that confidant when we need them. We want someone who understands our corny jokes and someone who can finish our sentences. Someone we can grow with.

Someone who can't live without us, and we can't live without them.

Until we meet that person, there's no reason for being with someone who can live without us and be just fine. I want someone who can't wait to see me when they get off work or can't wait until they have a free moment just to hear my voice on the phone.

I want someone who wants to spend the rest of their life with me. I want someone who wants to have a family with me, someone who will work hard to provide for their family.

Someone to be happy with.

Looking for Something

I woke up looking for something, but never found it, and I don't know if I ever will.


I've met people who spoke a good game, but never backed it up with their actions.
Maybe this is the exception, maybe not, but I don't want to walk away, because that's what he's expecting. But do I put my heart in limbo, waiting for things to get better?

I don't know what to do sometimes in this situation. It's so different than the others.
I just want to take it slow, so that my heart isn't shattered.

I want to give my all, but I don't know if that will be enough.
But what if I do give my all and get nothing in return.
But what if I'm the one making the sacrifices and the changing, and they remain the same?

I don't know, hopefully the situation will be cleared up soon.
Just waiting for the leadership by God.

This Morning....

This Morning....

This morning I rode my Waffle House and I saw a man and a woman embracing. They stood there holding each other what seemed to be like forever. It seemed to be like a hug that was to say goodbye to the love of your life because he belonged to another, or to say hello to that long lost love that your forgot about.

This Morning....

This morning I ended it all. I ended something I was in denial about. Something that I tried to hang on to for my own selfish needs and desires. I ended something I was tired of dealing with, tired of lying about, tired of being the "other".

This morning.....

This morning I realized I was back at the place I started.

Something Happened

She missed waking up to those Good Morning messages....
When it was all so sweet and nothing that he could do would upset her.
When he would pick her up for lunch and they would just enjoy each other's company.....

Something happened that changed all that....

One day he stopped looking at her the way he used to, with that little smirk and the tap of his left foot, like a dog wagging his tail when he knows he's about to get fed.

He wouldn't touch her the way he used to. He used to lightly tread upon the side of cheek and run his fingers through her hair. He wouldn't put his arm around her when they were sitting close.

Something happened that changed all that....

One day she realized what that something was...

It wasn't him, it was her.

When she took the time to evaluate herself, she realized she was in love with another man...........

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To be continued

EXPOSED....

The movie "For Colored Girls" struck a nerve with me. I knew this girl who was pretty much in the same situation the character of Janet Jackson was in. She met this man, who was so fine and so perfect...so she thought. They had a connection when they first met and she grew to love him. But then years later, the friendship began to have holes in it. He wouldn't call or text the way he used to. And then one day, someone close to her revealed something about her friend, she knew in the back of her mind it could happen, but wishing it never would.


To her "FRIEND"

Well if you haven't caught on by now, she no longer has a desire to be friends with you. She doesn't want to be in any form of communication with you, therefore your Facebook friendship has been deleted, and your number has been deleted from her phone.

She doesn't want someone around her, calling themselves her "friend", when they are just using her for her skills and just to get close to someone around her.

She lost all respect for you when your DIRTY LITTLE SECRET was exposed. You are a liar and man on the DOWN LOW.... For you to have the nerve to try and use her as your escape route, that was just low. You didn't think about the after effects of the situation. You never thought about, well maybe she might just fall in love with me. No, because all you want, is satisfaction.

Do you know how it feels to hear about a man you thought you knew...???
You hear that they're trying to get with another MAN!!!

No, you have no clue, because are heartless and she is a woman who deserves nothing but the best, and that just isn't YOU!