Total Confusion

So for last few weeks, there has been someone on my mind that I've been having very mixed emotions about. One moment I want to spend the rest of my life with him, and then in the next I want to just remove all communication between the two of us. I'm used to a certain level of pursuit from the guy I'm talking to, and his level is incredibly lower than I'm used to. He keeps me intrigued about him and I just can't loose him.
This is the big kicker, but not a surprise if you know anything about me

........ we haven't seen each other in person.......

Big surprise I know. You're probably thinking, well how can she like this guy so much when she hasn't even met him. Well I get to know the person and just hope and pray they're not full of lies. It's not like I don't have any clue of what he looks like. Trust me, the brother is FINE.

But we have been arguing for like 2 weeks now, so at this point, I'm tired of it, and ready to call it quits, but then right when I make up my mind to walk completely away, he says something that just captures me all over again.

I really want to be with him, but there is just that something that's keeping me at bay. He has no idea of who I am and what I want, because I feel as though I'm still changing and morphing into the woman God is creating me to be.

He has expressed what he wants and in the beginning when he made those things known, I was fine with them, but I was also thinking, those things would be accomplished in the future, not necessarily something I needed to take in at that very moment.

I don't know what to do and I wish I could just see him and know exactly what choice I should make, but until then, I guess I'll be going in circles.