There is something about me that you will never learn because you haven't been there.
I was disappointed by the fact that I never heard anything, but I'm not hurt because hey you've already been gone for years so I have blocked you from my heart and you only remained in my mind.
I was so ready for you to save the day and carry me away to a safehouse where I no longer had to deal with this life I'm living.
This place I dread waking up to everyday.
The place where I only feel safe in my room, my sanctuary, my place where it's only me.
A place where I stay isolated because I have yet to find someone truly worthy enough to withstand all of me.
I am tired of being disappointed by people.
I am tired of people saying one thing to me and when I try to give them the benefit of the doubt, they always fall through.
But I guess that is life right?
It is funny to me when people only want bits and pieces of me, when all I'm offering is all of me, then they say I'm too much.
Well since people can't handle all of me, they will receive none of me.
For I am a full and complete package that God so intricately made. And I believe He has made someone just for me.
Not someone that's been messed over or tainted, but rather someone pure of heart and ready to tackle every aspect of me.
Not someone that when I need them the most I cannot reach them, like so many seem to be these days.
Yes, I am disappointed, but I guess that is why you should not put your trust in man, but in God and Him alone!
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