My Side of the Story

This is my side of the story. I am going to tell you what really happened from the beginning to the end.

I saw him sitting there, looking a little rough. I wasn't really paying him any attention because he was not the one I had my eye on. It was going around that I was married, but of course no one was brave enough to approach me about it. The entire time I felt some one's eyes on me and in the end, who would have known, I would have looked into those eyes to find a bitter soul. A soul I was only supposed to guide out of brokenness, not fall in love with. But it was throughout this journey with him that that soul drifted away farther and farther away. Into an abyss of corruption, forever disconnecting any type of relationship we could have ever had.

At first it was fun and exciting, but I did not realize until it was over, all the people that stood in place, trying to warn me not to get too attached. I was blamed in the end, but that is fine, as long as he knew he would have never found someone like me again. I now know, he and I were not meant for each other. He wanted everyone in the rooms attention, whereas if you wanted mine, you would have to earn it. I guess reality never completely hit home for him and even if it did, he would probably never admit it.

I have seen him around and the chemistry we once had has vanished away because he has been tainted more now than then. When I looked at him I did not see any of the anointing that once resided with him. Please know that I cared for him and I would have done almost anything for him, but when you take that for granted, situations usually end up where you do not want them.

My heart was broken after that experience, but with time I have healed and I am more stronger and more resilient. My trust was broken and even to this day, I have learned not to trust so easily. I am glad I only shared my untangibles with him, because life would have been completely different otherwise.

These days I refuse to waste time on people who cannot make time for me and neither should anyone else. If you choose to make that type of connection with a young lady, do not lie to her and do not secretly do things that if brought to light could ultimately crush her. Because one thing is for sure, you will reap what you sow. Maybe not tomorrow, next week, next month, or even next year, but you better know one day you will.

So this is my side of the story and although I still kept it very vague and I kept some things out, the point is to learn from past mistakes and do not allow yourself to be put in a situation where you're not being treated as well as you should. Because if you allow someone to treat like dirt, they probably will. Yes I have high expections, and those expectations are not met, trust me I will dismiss any chance forthere to be anything but a friendship/association.