Dealing with it.......

There have been so many years that you have been gone.
And now you have returned and you have entered back into my life.
Yet somehow we have just picked up were we left off.
My heart was broken when you walked away, but I never forgot you.
I was lost like a ship without a sail.
Never allowing no one to come too close, because I was afraid that if I let my guard down, that they would walk away from me.
I've always had a wall guarding my heart, because it's been broken, shattered, and torn to pieces.
It's taken many years for it to heal, so I refuse to give it chance to be hurt again.
I know what it is like to be in a whirl wind, fighting off the weeds of life.
And I wondered as I was fading away, how I could get back to my dreams and away from reality.
I had trained my mind to go to a place were no one could hurt me and I was all alone.
So now in my reality, it consists of me and only me.
There I had to grow stronger, wiser, not weaker, and less incisive mentally.
I had to give myself enough time to deal with my past.
To deal with my mental unbalance, my constant state of gloom, for I wrestled with the state of success.
In the frame of mind I was in, feelings of pleasure and delight were not in my view.
The poisons of life were upon me, so sharp and firm, but I took each day and each step as it came.
Slowly, I preceeded to grow with a desire for the minutes of the world, a desire for success, a desire for the wonderful changes of life.