What I Have Learned

Something happened to me just the other day. I woke up to the realization that I
was alone. I’ve known that for a while now but I guess it really just hit me. I
don’t have someone to wake up next to every morning smiling back at me. I don’t have
someone to snuggle up close to when it’s a little chilly outside.


I had gotten used to the fact that I just had friends. But sometimes I wonder why
I don’t necessarily have someone I can call my own. Is it because I am scared of
someone loving me and feeling vulnerable to being hurt? Is it that I am just being
too picky? Or is it just not time for me to be with anyone yet? There are so many
questions to be asked but I will continue to wait on the man God has created just
for me.

There is so much that goes on in your mind when you are all alone. You think
about what could have been and what could be if only you were in control. But
sometimes it’s not meant for us to always be in control. Sometimes we have to let go
and let God have His way.


I have learned that my will is not God’s will and I have to step aside and get
out of the way so that He can have dominion over my life. I have learned that I do
have someone to love me in spite of it all. He’s always there to comfort me and give
me a peace about things. He’s always there to give an understanding of my situation,
and he doesn’t judge me when I mess up and make the wrong decision.


I have learned that no one can love me like He can and at any moment in my life
that I need Him, He will be there, no matter what.