A LESSON LEARNED

It hurt me that you never tried to stop me.
That you just let me walk right out the door.
I was hurt from your reaction that you didn’t even try to fuss or fight.
It made me think all of it was just a lie.
Or were you saying what you thought I wanted to hear.
Unfortunately, I wasn’t playing the same game you were, I had put the cards down and didn’t want to play anymore I wanted the real thing.
I wanted to have a connection with you.
A connection no one or nothing could break.

But my expectations were too high.
I was reaching for the stars, but you still wanted to reach for what your hands could touch.
I wanted more.
I know I can be a little spoiled at times and want things to go my way, but I adapted.
I adapted to your ways.
I adapted to your time.
I adapted to your schedule.
And yes I knew I couldn’t have all the time, energy, and affection I wanted and needed, but I adapted.
I ADAPTED.

But unfortunately, you didn’t.
You didn’t meet me half way.
You kept doing the same old things you used to do and that’s when things became a problem.
I only have so much to give before I feel all used up.
If I’m giving and pouring into someone else and no one is pouring into me, what then will I have to survive on?
Nothing, I would be empty.

Sometimes we have to go through difficult things to learn our lesson, but if only someone could have told me this and spared me a heart break I would have learned it all the same.

I will never regret anything or any time spent because it was a lesson learned.