So I've finally realized that I was never meant to be fall in love in the past, because there is someone greater in my future that will be real, honest, and completely in love with God. I had so many obstacles thrown at me in every situation, but it was so that I didn't get too comfortable. So no longer will there be anymore Re -dos, undos, backspaces, rewinds, copies, imitations, fabrications, or simulations allowed in my life.
It always seemed everyone would fit in this one category, which never worked for me. I don't want to be limited in what is available or offered to me. I'm a free soul now with a heart that is free and whole. I am secure in what I can offer and bring to the table, and it's not just a pretty face. I no longer will accept inconsistency, because if and when you're into something or someone, I believe, you should give it your all.
Although I'm single, I'm not available. Right now, I'm preparing my heart, mind, body, and soul for my upcoming future. I don't know exactly what's in store, but I know God has it in His hands.
I know that being here is all in the will of God. If nothing else, this a humbling experience and one in which I am to draw nigh to Him.
As I look back over my life, I think about all the things I've been through, all that I've seen, heard, and learned. It all prepared me to be in this place; right here, right now.
The Ever So Changing Life of Ms. Wright (A.K.A. GOD'S BOO)
Friday, November 18, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
The Last Conversation to My Past
If only I could have one last conversation with you, I'd tell you how much I once cared for you. I'd tell you that you made a heavy impact in my life, both in a positive and negative way.
I'd tell you how much you were on my mind for years on end, but now there's just the memory.
I'd tell you how selfish I thought you were and how in denial I was once was.
I'd tell you that although I can't remember the day the happened, I'm glad whatever was between us came to a screeching holt. I don't know if it happened 6 months or 2 years ago, nonetheless I'm grateful.
I thought not having you in my life would make things hard and lonely, but actually the opposite has happened. I'm at peace with myself. I no longer have someone judging my every move, when they themselves don't have a clean and clear past.
I had to learn to depend on myself and God to see me through. When I first met you, the cover was pulled over my eyes and I only saw what I wanted to see. But now the true is revealed and I go forth in life being prosperous and free.
I'd tell you how much you were on my mind for years on end, but now there's just the memory.
I'd tell you how selfish I thought you were and how in denial I was once was.
I'd tell you that although I can't remember the day the happened, I'm glad whatever was between us came to a screeching holt. I don't know if it happened 6 months or 2 years ago, nonetheless I'm grateful.
I thought not having you in my life would make things hard and lonely, but actually the opposite has happened. I'm at peace with myself. I no longer have someone judging my every move, when they themselves don't have a clean and clear past.
I had to learn to depend on myself and God to see me through. When I first met you, the cover was pulled over my eyes and I only saw what I wanted to see. But now the true is revealed and I go forth in life being prosperous and free.
Saturday, October 8, 2011
An Open Mind being put to Good Use
As I looked back over my entries from the time I started this blog, which was a few years ago, I realize how much I've grown, even just from last year. I can actually see the progress of the mental state and maturity. For a while, my blogs used to capture my bitterness and anger, especially toward species of the opposite sex, but now I'm beyond that. There's so much more to life than that. Coming into communication with people is necessary,but you need to be at a place where you can appropriately socialize. Some people can over analyze, whereas, some people seem to be like the tin man and have no brain at all.
Being here is forcing me is to line up my priorities in a way that pleases me and not necessarily other parties involved.
I think we all have to get to this place in our lives for us to see ourselves for ourselves, instead of always looking through someone else's eyes. People love to comment and critics others, before taking a moment to look in the mirror.
Many people are always striving to be the next best thing and have the best of everything, but they are not happy inside. If you gain all the riches in the world, but yet, you have no peace of mind or joy, then all the money will be useless to you.
A self examination can bring you out of darkness and once in the light, your priorities must be made right.
Being here is forcing me is to line up my priorities in a way that pleases me and not necessarily other parties involved.
I think we all have to get to this place in our lives for us to see ourselves for ourselves, instead of always looking through someone else's eyes. People love to comment and critics others, before taking a moment to look in the mirror.
Many people are always striving to be the next best thing and have the best of everything, but they are not happy inside. If you gain all the riches in the world, but yet, you have no peace of mind or joy, then all the money will be useless to you.
A self examination can bring you out of darkness and once in the light, your priorities must be made right.
In Vain...
It's been almost 2 months since been here. There have been ups and downs, but I'm made it through. I've learned to put my trust in God. For He is the only one that will never leave me alone. I've tried to find a joy on my own, but the world's joy just slipped right through my hands. Because it was not made to weather the storm.
I've been in that place for far too long. I knew something more was in store. That is why this path has been laid. I had no inclination for my future when I was still searching this world for love. Yes, I knew that it would not last, but my heart still reached out and grabbed it, in vain.
I searched the minds and hearts of many, trying to locate myself in them, but that too was in vain.
When you're a child, you can only imagine a future, but when you become an adult that once distant future, becomes your reality and present.
I never imagined my life would be where it is today. I never imagined I would be one of sole contributors to a child's education.
Life is a funny at times and only God knows the path He will have to trod, but in any case, He will indeed prepare you.
I've been in that place for far too long. I knew something more was in store. That is why this path has been laid. I had no inclination for my future when I was still searching this world for love. Yes, I knew that it would not last, but my heart still reached out and grabbed it, in vain.
I searched the minds and hearts of many, trying to locate myself in them, but that too was in vain.
When you're a child, you can only imagine a future, but when you become an adult that once distant future, becomes your reality and present.
I never imagined my life would be where it is today. I never imagined I would be one of sole contributors to a child's education.
Life is a funny at times and only God knows the path He will have to trod, but in any case, He will indeed prepare you.
Friday, September 30, 2011
Experiences in Korea
It's been a while since I've written in my blog, but so much has transpired in my life. I have graduated college and I am now in Changwon, South Korea. I am teaching English to children here who have been learning English since about the age of 3 or 4.
Being here has definitely been a culture shock, because upon entering into the country, I have been the center of attention, but not in the way I would like to be. Many people have looked at me crazy, staring like they have never seen anyone of a different race, which might exactly be the case. In the beginning, I was angry that people were being so rude, but then I had to open my mind to think that these people may not have been taught the way I was. I was taught to accept people from all walks of life. whether they be rich or poor, white, black, hispanic, asian, or whatever.
I would always find myself saying outloud, as I walked down the street, that these people ought to be glad it's me here and not some of the other people from America. I have been taught to respect others as well as myself. I refuse to give myself or others a bad name, just because I have been disrespected in a way that it would have been justified if I acted out accordingly.
Being here has definitely been a culture shock, because upon entering into the country, I have been the center of attention, but not in the way I would like to be. Many people have looked at me crazy, staring like they have never seen anyone of a different race, which might exactly be the case. In the beginning, I was angry that people were being so rude, but then I had to open my mind to think that these people may not have been taught the way I was. I was taught to accept people from all walks of life. whether they be rich or poor, white, black, hispanic, asian, or whatever.
I would always find myself saying outloud, as I walked down the street, that these people ought to be glad it's me here and not some of the other people from America. I have been taught to respect others as well as myself. I refuse to give myself or others a bad name, just because I have been disrespected in a way that it would have been justified if I acted out accordingly.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
MOHAWK QUICKWEAVE DONE BY JOEL MCKINNEY
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Thursday, January 6, 2011
1st Entry in 2011
It's my 1st entry in 2011 and the Lord is doing something miraculous in my life. Out with the old, and in with the new. So many things have been happening lately; some good and some bad. I need the Lord to work on me in every capacity: my heart, my mind, my spirit, and this flesh. there is a constant battle of the spirit and the flesh.
I need to learn to let go of things and people completely, cutting it off at the root, instead of picking it back up to deal with those same feelings of resentment, rejection, and hurt all over again.
What is it about me that makes people stay at a distance and be afraid to come close?Maybe it's a sign that I have written on my forehead that starts to blink when they get too close....
I don't know, but I'll just take it as this is the time God needs to work some things in ME.
I need to learn to let go of things and people completely, cutting it off at the root, instead of picking it back up to deal with those same feelings of resentment, rejection, and hurt all over again.
What is it about me that makes people stay at a distance and be afraid to come close?Maybe it's a sign that I have written on my forehead that starts to blink when they get too close....
I don't know, but I'll just take it as this is the time God needs to work some things in ME.
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