So I've finally realized that I was never meant to be fall in love in the past, because there is someone greater in my future that will be real, honest, and completely in love with God. I had so many obstacles thrown at me in every situation, but it was so that I didn't get too comfortable. So no longer will there be anymore Re -dos, undos, backspaces, rewinds, copies, imitations, fabrications, or simulations allowed in my life.
It always seemed everyone would fit in this one category, which never worked for me. I don't want to be limited in what is available or offered to me. I'm a free soul now with a heart that is free and whole. I am secure in what I can offer and bring to the table, and it's not just a pretty face. I no longer will accept inconsistency, because if and when you're into something or someone, I believe, you should give it your all.
Although I'm single, I'm not available. Right now, I'm preparing my heart, mind, body, and soul for my upcoming future. I don't know exactly what's in store, but I know God has it in His hands.
I know that being here is all in the will of God. If nothing else, this a humbling experience and one in which I am to draw nigh to Him.
As I look back over my life, I think about all the things I've been through, all that I've seen, heard, and learned. It all prepared me to be in this place; right here, right now.