I Don't Know.....

I wish I knew what to do, but unfortunately, I don't.
I'm irritated with this whole thing and I know I deserve so much more. I can't pin point when things started going down hill, but I know things aren't as they were a month ago. Maybe this was way too rushed, but I thought I was ready; I obviously was wrong. Maybe it just needs more time, but as of right now, I don't think I'm willing to wait for that. I know this is not how a relationship is supposed to be. I don't know anymore.

Questions of love, left unanswered.....

I really need to get it together. I'm trying to fight it, but these feelings are just too strong. Emotions are what drive us and what drive us astray. You cannot persuade without understanding them well, and so let's just say I'm being persuaded.

My mind and heart are at war with the decisions at hand.
Have I made a decision too quickly? Can I go back and undo what I have done?

I don't know what to do, no one seems to have the words to say. I have never been in this situation before and I feel hopeless. My mind is telling me to keep going and maybe it will work itself out, but then my heart remembers all too well that feeling
of exuberant joy. That feeling of butterflies and the forever growing desire to learn more.

Am I expecting too much to desire for it to be automatic and never die out like I know things could be?
Is my desire for an undying love unattainable?????

I think not....

But do I give it more time to grow, or cut it off at the root??
Do I follow my heart or listen to my mind??

Questions of love, left unanswered.....